About

I am a tenth generation American, descended from a family that has been working a farm that was deeded to us by William Penn.  The country has changed around us but we have held true.  I stand in my grandmother’s kitchen, look down the valley to her brother’s farm and see my great-great-great-great-great-grandmother Hannah standing on the porch.  She is holding the baby, surrounded by four other children, and saying goodbye to her husband and oldest son who are going off to fight in the Revolutionary War.  The war is twenty miles away and her husband will die fighting.  We are not the Daughters of the American Revolution; we were its mothers.

My father, Milton C. Woodlen, got his doctorate from Temple University in the 1940’s when—in his words—“a doctorate still meant something.”  He became an education professor at West Chester State Teachers College, where my mother, Elizabeth Hope Copeland, had graduated.  My mother raised four girls and one boy, of which I am the middle child.  My parents are deceased and my siblings are estranged.

My fiancé, Robert H. Dobrow, was a fighter pilot in the Marine Corps.  In 1974, his plane crashed, his parachute did not open, and we buried him in a cemetery on Long Island.  I could say a great deal about him, or nothing; there is no middle ground.  I have loved other men; Bob was my soul mate.

The single greatest determinate of who I am and what my life has been is that I inherited my father’s gene for bipolar disorder, type II.  Associated with all bipolar disorders is executive dysfunction, a learning disability that interferes with the ability to sort and organize.  Despite an I.Q. of 139, I failed twelve subjects and got expelled from high school and prep school.  I attended Syracuse University and Onondaga Community College and got an associate’s degree after twenty-five years.  I am nothing if not tenacious.

Gifted with intelligence, constrained by disability, and compromised by depression, my employment was limited to entry level jobs.  Being female in the 1960’s meant that I did office work—billing at the university library, calling out telegrams at Western Union, and filing papers at a law firm.  During one decade, I worked at about a hundred different places as a temporary secretary.  I worked for hospitals, banks, manufacturers and others, including the county government.  I quit the District Attorney’s Office to manage a gas station; it was more honest work.

After Bob’s death, I started taking antidepressants.  Following doctor’s orders, I took them every day for twenty-six years.  During that time, I attempted suicide a dozen times and was hospitalized about fifty times for a total of approximately three years.  By 1991, I was unable to work, homeless, and declared fully and permanently disabled.  After a severe suicide attempt in 1999, I spent a month on life support with no expectation of survival.  Two years later, I was the youngest person in a large elder residence, bed-ridden and in constant despair.  I had no family or friends, no money, and no church.  My life was a constant stream of medications, ambulances, emergency rooms, IVs, catheters and officially approved torture by the medical industry, so I stopped taking all medications and prepared to die.  Instead of dying, I began to get better.  Physicians prescribing pharmaceuticals had been killing me.

I went through acute cold-turkey drug withdrawal, then a year or two of detoxification from drugs.  I discovered that doctors doing drugs had so severely impaired my immune system that I no longer can take any drugs for anything.  This is problematic given that I have chronic renal failure, nephrogenic diabetes insipidus, diabetes mellitus, labile hypertension, right bundle branch block, left ventricular hypertension, severe obstructive sleep apnea, celiac disease, spinal arthritis, pulmonary fibrosis, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and am hyper-reactive to all sorts of things.  And I still have bipolar disorder.

I learned that the trigger for depression is the perception of powerlessness, so I began to act with power.  I filed complaints with higher government agencies against lower government agencies, got the complaints investigated, and maintained pressure until there was a final resolution.  As a result of my actions, employees have been fired, downgraded or transferred.  Agencies have had to pay.

  • Centro bus company had to spend about half a million dollars on new buses.
  • Medical Answering Services, LLC, had to pay $80,000 back to the state.
  • Upgrading curb-cuts cost the City of Syracuse $72,000.
  • Crouse Hospital will be spending $90,000 to repair its sidewalks.

I have become an activist on behalf of God’s people—elderly, disabled, poor people, of which I am one.  I ask for nothing more than the law requires.  My activism is solely to get substandard housing, transportation, and other services brought up to the level required by federal law.  I work for God and answer to no man.

I had been a lukewarm Christian all my life but after I stopped taking drugs, I started reading the Holy Bible.  I read it through three times, then continued on to read Living Buddha, Living Christ, the Wiccan Bible, the Bhagavad Gita and the Holy Koran.  I have come to understand that there is One Great Divinity, variously called Brahman, Yahweh, God or Allah.  Divinity has appeared to different cultures at different times, and used different people to send what is essentially one single message:  Worship me, and be kind to each other.  We are called to humility and service, truth and justice.

I am sixty-three years old now.  My Social Security Disability income is $782 per month; the federal government has me classified as “severely impoverished”.  I receive Medicare, Medicaid, Food Stamps and HEAP.  I live in a two-room, 540-square-foot, HUD-subsidized apartment, sleep in a hospital bed and travel in a power wheelchair.  Home health aides care for me every day.  I have a safe apartment, healthy food, clean clothes and a warm bed.  That makes me more privileged than most of the world’s people.

It is well with my soul.

14 Responses to About

  1. susan morris says:

    at times,Wayne Freeman sounds to me like anold marshmallow.

    But boy, he sure was sarcastic to me when I was accused by a weirdo medicaid trensport driver of STRIKING him.

    I mean to tell, you that just isn’t me. I did throw a milk carton at a boyfriend about 25 years ago, but thats about it in my historyof violence.

    No one send me anything in the mail {I’ve been cut off of transport, and doesn’t medicaid and the gov mail you something every time you sneeze?

    Nothing, not one letter of the alphabet for me.

    “I’m not sending you anything” said Wayne, in the most sarcastic voice
    waiting for legal aid to call won’t you correspond?
    I live in rochester I used to live on Long Island where your soul mate is.
    thats where raised.
    I sent you a facbook message witing for reply! susan

  2. Paula Whitfield says:

    You go, girl! Danielle, the supervisor of the Medicaid non-ride service, nixed the ride I had scheduled cuz she was mad at me, accused me of wanting to ride in a cab in the winter. But I needed a ride cuz the last bus out of Northeast Medical Center is at 4:15 and my appt was at 3:35pm! I was told about Wayne Freeman and stumbled upon you. I want to complain, so I’m getting my lawyer in on this, especially after reading what you have home through. Thanks, I’ll let you know what happens if I can find your site again.

    • annecwoodlen says:

      Thanks,Paula, and keep up the fight! If there’s any help I can provide, get in touch. Is Medicaid asking you what you’re going to the doctor for, or what kind of doctor you’re going to?

  3. melinda moss says:

    I commented on an earlier post today because I just found your blog. Then I went to the home page and saw what has happened to you in the last few years.
    You are in my prayers, I love your writing, and I think we have a lot in common.
    God bless you.

  4. erica says:

    Hi Anne,

    I am wondering if there is any way that we can get in contact. I have a very similar story to yours and just am off of 14 years of meds/ect. I am at my 1 year mark and life has been incredibly difficult. I am seeking your advice. If you could please, contact me, I would appreciate it.

  5. Steven says:

    I am a relative of ROBERT H. DOBROW and have never heard of you __ WHERE DID YOU MEET ROBERT?

    Did you change your name __ WAS __ the first letter __ E? (maybe answer should be __ NO __)

    __ IF __ so then please explain photo why such a drastic change __ IN EMAIL / FACEBOOK MESSAGE __

  6. W.P. Roberts says:

    I knew Bob from pilot training in the Navy and prior to that at RPI. I have nothing but good memories of him. I still remember reading the aircraft accident report that resulted in his death. RIP

  7. Unbelievable Anne…..,
    I really wish I was in your immediate area to help you out, I currently reside in Toronto. I have been a British Personal Support Worker for the past 30 years specializing in Palliative Care for the elderly and the more severe disabled, both within the Community and Nursing Homes. I am also a very distant cousin of yours……..originating from the North of England. Both sides of my parents families were Quakers during the 17th Centuries, on my Fathers Maternal side it is the Large and Simcocks, while on my Mothers Paternal side, the Hopes, Willets. All, as you probably will know were residing within the Chester, Delaware, New Jersey areas at that time.
    I came across your blog while doing continued research into my family history and found it all very fascinating to read, but so incredibly frustrating because of the total crap you have to keep enduring year after year. What the hell are they playing at?
    I can’t understand why the Carers (support workers) are not going back to you? So what if a client is a little more ‘challenging’ than others, or if a P.S.W. is not quite as compatible with a client…, just get in there, do the damned job to the best of your ability and go on to the next client. The more a Support worker visits a Client, the more a bond and friendship will develop, a Support Worker has to keep returning and building on that relationship and in that way more knowledge is gained about that client. I’m old school and unfortunately I don’t have a lot of time with some of the younger P.S.W.s who turn up late, don’t turn up at all or are constantly on their phone. I was trained in the early 1980s by some of the old school British Nurses where discipline was the key to patient care. What a bunch of Morons, lol !!!

    • annecwoodlen says:

      Wow! What a great message, both about our relatedness (albeit distant) and the aide problem. A large part of the aide problem is that aides are allowed to do whatever they damn want to–there is no effective management. I believe that, at least in the United States, parents have abdicated their responsibility for raising their children. Likewise, agencies–which are run by parents who have ignored responsibility for their children–also have ignored their responsibility to manage their aides. I am in the middle of writing today’s blog–part II of “I Don’t Know; I Really Don’t.” I hope you continue to follow the posts. I imagine it would be lovely to have you in my home as an aide/supporter. Would God that it could be.

  8. Grey says:

    Is the Benjamin Rush Center still around?

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